Self-Portrait with Tapestry and Severed Tongue

The chasm of my empty mouth, a chalice
flower gaping open in the dark. Was I guilty

in this? Left alone
………..with him calling me beautiful,
skewering into me, so dry and biting,
………..his primal wanting. So beautiful.

I tried to tell what he had done, mimicked
………..his hands with mine
full of thread writhing back and forth.

With what was left, I sewed
………..together every piece
of flesh so no one else could take it from me:

………………….small tight stitches

that curved through the lungs and pierced
everything I feared losing –

………………….the stomach, the eyes –

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Jessica Lynn Suchon is a poet, essayist, and women’s rights advocate. She recently received her MFA from Southern Illinois University where she was recognized by The Academy of American Poets. Jessica was named a 2016 Emerging Writer Fellow by Aspen Words, a partner of The Aspen Institute and was a finalist for the 2017 Indiana Review Prize. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Yemassee, Hermeneutic Chaos, Radar Poetry, Connotation Press, decomP magazinE, Glass: A Journal of Poetry, Rust + Moth, and A Shadow Map: An Anthology by Survivors of Sexual Assault, among others.