Tabs open on your screen right now:
Hypernormalisation, a BBC documentary I want to watch; Hobart submittable page since I’m reading fiction subs for October; wolf pupy’s twitter account; Ballotpedia for Arkansas Medical Marijuana Legalization Issue #6; Witch Craft Mag’s gmail account; my personal gmail account; google drive excel sheet for Witch Craft Mag’s books; a HuffPo article about Halloween for kids in the ‘70s vs. Halloween today; someone’s personal essay on dating a Hell’s Angel, and four tabs on some jobs my husband is looking for since he used my computer and I haven’t closed out of the tabs yet.

If you had to brag about yourself:
I’m doing a really good job of staying alive.

Your writer crush:
Elizabeth Ellen, Mary Gaitskill, Moss Angel Witchmonstr (formerly Sara June Woods), Nicola Maye Goldberg, Sarah Gerard. How can I just stick to one?

Favorite lyric:
“He is the one-time come back king / I am the trailer park darling”

Any place in the world:
I don’t want to live on this planet anymore. Or somewhere rainy with lots of plants

Best breakfast:
A scrambled egg with two pieces of bacon in between an english muffin with peanut butter on it. Don’t @ me

Favorite online places right now:
I spent the last month living in the woods so like nowhere currently

Sweetest thing:
Sometimes when my dog jumps up onto the couch he farts and so it sounds like his little dog fart is a jet propulsion

Your rituals (writing or not):
Every morning I wake up and take a shot of apple cider vinegar before I have my coffee. I make offerings when the seasons change. I shave my legs every time I shower and lotion my face every morning. I brush my teeth when I want to feel more awake. I hunch my back over my laptop when I write. I grind my teeth and then complain about it, and try not to smoke cigarettes when I drink. I chase my whiskey with water. I tattoo myself with runes when I need strength or patience.

Least impressive thing about you:
I don’t read half as much as I truly should and I probably drink more than I need to, but I eat a lot of fresh greens so hopefully that saves me someday

Favorite space to write:
In a quiet room with no one home

What should we know:
I sleep on the floor

Guilty literary pleasure:
Chuck Palahniuk before Pygmy came out

Best book nobody talks about: 
I can’t keep up with what people are talking about

Character (TV, book, movie) you most identify with:
Whoever the character is that Chloe Sevigny plays in Big Love

Last time you lied:
When someone at a thrift store asked me if, since I was new to the area, if I found a church yet

The lie:
To end the conversation politely I said god bless you but I’m polytheist

I’ve probably lied about other things since then because I’m always trying to be ~nice~

Question you secretly want to be asked:
How are you feeling today?

The answer:
Oh my god, sometimes I am afraid that I have no personality and that I might not even be a person. I’m trying very hard to like myself, and not to be so selfish. Sometimes I think I’m stuck inside my body and all I want to do is be alone, but I know that I can’t do that every day, and the balance to be by myself and also be a good partner and friend feels like a battle. I hope I’m not the only one.

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Elle Nash is the author of the chapbook ‘i can remember the meaning of every tarot card but i can’t remember what i texted you last night’ (Nostrovia! Press, 2016). Her novel, Animals Eat Each Other, is forthcoming from Dzanc Books fall 2017. She is a founding editor of Witch Craft Magazine and a fiction editor at Hobart Pulp. She currently resides in the Ozarks with her husband. You can find her on Twitter @saderotica.