JESUS HAD A BOYFRIEND

AIDAN ARAGON

and in this poem his name is Gabriel
in this poem, God loves fags

in this poem Jesus reads philosophy aloud and
Gabriel kisses the soft spot of his inner elbow
in this poem Jesus laughs because he is very ticklish
in this poem he tells Gabriel
Quit it
in a way that means
This is the moment I want to be forever

in this poem Jesus’ Mom [Mary] says,
Quiet down, or I’ll have to go over there
Joseph cooks a dinner of fresh bread, pan seared fish, and red wine
no one’s blood is upon the floor

Gabriel takes Jesus’ chin in his hand and moves it away from the page
in this poem he says,
Let me read you something
in this poem he looks into his eyes and says,
Have you ever seen beauty in a way such as this
he gestures to the body of Jesus
Have you ever heard such beauty as this
and he presses his finger over Jesus’ lips
Have you ever felt something and known it was beauty as this
and he graces his fingers over Jesus’ bare arm
Have you ever tasted such beauty as this
and he —
Joseph calls everyone to dinner, banging together pots and pans
in this poem they eat and laugh and grow full:
of each other and food

in this poem Jesus takes Gabriel home
he leans in to kiss him before the stoop
Mary and Joseph wait at home with locked lips
Gabriel stops him
he says,
My parents might be watching
but in this poem Jesus kisses him anyways
he says,
Then what

in this poem Gabriel looks pale
he begins to cry
Gabriel, how… how could you
in this poem Jesus looks to a terrified woman
in this poem she screams,
GET OUT
YOU, YOU…
[ ]
the last word came out a gasp
her face screams regret
she cries

in this poem Gabriel runs
Jesus runs after him
in this poem Mary and Joseph become worried,
it’s getting late
in this poem Gabriel stands at the face of a sunset
in this poem Jesus watches the moon
Gabriel falls
and in this poem Jesus falls to catch him

in this poem Mary answers the phone
the caller says,
Is this Jesus’ mother…
she falls to the floor
in this poem Joseph runs out the door and down the sunset,
but they’ve already fallen
beneath the horizon
Gabriel’s mother doesn’t get a call
and in this poem Gabriel cries and cries and cries

in this poem Gabriel sits between Mary and Joseph
looking over the forever beautiful Jesus

in this poem they never hear from Gabriel’s mother again
in this poem he reads philosophy to himself,
in the voice of Jesus,
in this poem he lay in his bed
in this poem Mary is his mother and Joseph his father

in this poem he loves again
in his name
Gabriel never forgets to love
Gabriel doesn’t give a shit about the opinions of others, Because Jesus wouldn’t
Gabriel decides to be a faggot

and in this poem he never forgets
he had a boyfriend, named Jesus, and it was a beautiful thing
but in this poem he has to move on

in this poem Gabriel says,
I’m a faggot
in this poem God loves fags

in this poem Love is knowing to move on

but in this poem, none of that matters, because
in this poem is the only place anyone believes that happened.

AIDAN ARAGON (they/them) is a queer poet from Northeastern Wisconsin. Their work can be found at Peach Mag, Ghost City Review, and The Cerurove. Their micro-chapbook, “There is a Monster,” is forthcoming from Ghost City Review this summer (2019). Aidan is currently a senior in high school, soon to be undergraduate student at the University of Wisconsin Madison. You can find them on Twitter @aidanaragon.