Tabs open on your screen right now:
Hypernormalisation, a BBC documentary I want to watch; Hobart submittable page since I’m reading fiction subs for October; wolf pupy’s twitter account; Ballotpedia for Arkansas Medical Marijuana Legalization Issue #6; Witch Craft Mag’s gmail account; my personal gmail account; google drive excel sheet for Witch Craft Mag’s books; a HuffPo article about Halloween for kids in the ‘70s vs. Halloween today; someone’s personal essay on dating a Hell’s Angel, and four tabs on some jobs my husband is looking for since he used my computer and I haven’t closed out of the tabs yet.
If you had to brag about yourself:
I’m doing a really good job of staying alive.
Your writer crush:
Elizabeth Ellen, Mary Gaitskill, Moss Angel Witchmonstr (formerly Sara June Woods), Nicola Maye Goldberg, Sarah Gerard. How can I just stick to one?
“He is the one-time come back king / I am the trailer park darling”
Any place in the world:
I don’t want to live on this planet anymore. Or somewhere rainy with lots of plants
A scrambled egg with two pieces of bacon in between an english muffin with peanut butter on it. Don’t @ me
Favorite online places right now:
I spent the last month living in the woods so like nowhere currently
Sometimes when my dog jumps up onto the couch he farts and so it sounds like his little dog fart is a jet propulsion
Your rituals (writing or not):
Every morning I wake up and take a shot of apple cider vinegar before I have my coffee. I make offerings when the seasons change. I shave my legs every time I shower and lotion my face every morning. I brush my teeth when I want to feel more awake. I hunch my back over my laptop when I write. I grind my teeth and then complain about it, and try not to smoke cigarettes when I drink. I chase my whiskey with water. I tattoo myself with runes when I need strength or patience.
Least impressive thing about you:
I don’t read half as much as I truly should and I probably drink more than I need to, but I eat a lot of fresh greens so hopefully that saves me someday
Favorite space to write:
In a quiet room with no one home
What should we know:
I sleep on the floor
Guilty literary pleasure:
Chuck Palahniuk before Pygmy came out
Best book nobody talks about:
I can’t keep up with what people are talking about
Character (TV, book, movie) you most identify with:
Whoever the character is that Chloe Sevigny plays in Big Love
Last time you lied:
When someone at a thrift store asked me if, since I was new to the area, if I found a church yet
To end the conversation politely I said god bless you but I’m polytheist
I’ve probably lied about other things since then because I’m always trying to be ~nice~
Question you secretly want to be asked:
How are you feeling today?
Oh my god, sometimes I am afraid that I have no personality and that I might not even be a person. I’m trying very hard to like myself, and not to be so selfish. Sometimes I think I’m stuck inside my body and all I want to do is be alone, but I know that I can’t do that every day, and the balance to be by myself and also be a good partner and friend feels like a battle. I hope I’m not the only one.